welcome to my journal

It feels different without them. There’s almost this emptiness and an excitement in me.

I have been curious and questioning myself about raising kids. Raising teenagers – for them to be the best happy version of themselves. How do I love them and give them the world but at the same time teach them to think for themselves and to be independent? How do I teach them but not impose my view on them or for them to feel an expectation? How do I teach them that happiness is within and not to be dependent on others to make them happy? There’s such a fine line and the line is so blurry that it’s hard to see. I’m intrigued. I want to be able to define that fine line.

They are having fun and the set up was easy. They facetimed me to see how I was and can see I’m in my own world with my puzzles. I’m happy and I feel good. They told me they have been swimming and making friends and hearing that makes me feel great.

Time apart is good. Time for yourself is much needed.